Humbling

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Almost every successful person begins with two beliefs: the future can be better than the present, and I have the power to make it so.
Do you know how you are just going along in your life, thinking nothing is different or has changed and then you see something that smacks the reality right in your face? That is where I'm at right now. I have been living in a state of denial. I have convinced myself that while I have had a 'few treats here and there' over the past couple of months, that my body hasn't changed. I have convinced myself that even though the scale has gone up a few pounds, it isn't that noticeable. But here is the reality...the camera doesn't lie. And while I DO NOT live and die by the scale, in this case when I am this far 'gone' it doesn't lie either.

Today I was completely humbled and honestly quite mortified and embarrassed as I stepped on the scale for the first time in too long. And even more disgusted when I looked at the pictures I had Steve take to use a starting progress pictures. I told myself even before taking them that I was going to post them no matter how bad they looked. I chose an outfit that was tight. I did not use a filter. Granted the lighting isn't the best, but this is the reality. This is my starting point.  Honestly, I want to hurl to think about posting this picture out there for anyone to see. It is so embarrassing. But I also know that just maybe, there is someone out there reading this that feels just like me. Maybe they are sick and tired of being sick and tired too.  Maybe I can inspire them to take that first step with me. It's scary. It's uncomfortable. Quite frankly, it's a pain in the butt!! It's HARD to change. I'm not going to sugarcoat it. But I'm over feeling sorry for myself. It's time to step up and make the change.
The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.

My goal over the next year is to document my progress. I will share what is working for me and what doesn't. This isn't going to be a story that is sunshine and rainbows. NO ONE's story is without struggle and setback. It's important to set your expectations for reality. BUT that doesn't mean it can't be done. No more excuses. No more hiding. It's time to take care of me.

So here it goes.  My day 1 pictures. Soon to be my BEFORE pictures. ;) I'm scared. I'm excited. I'm apprehensive. I'm nervous about being judged. I'm afraid I will fail. But I also have have faith in myself to know that if I make the decision to do this...no excuses...then no one can stop me. Let's do this.

Do not think of today's failures, but of the success that may come tomorrow.You have set yourself a difficult task, but you will succeed if you persevere; and you will find joy in overcoming obstacles. - Hellen Keller
Do not think of today's failures, but of the success that may come tomorrow.You have set yourself a difficult task, but you will succeed if you persevere; and you will find joy in overcoming obstacles.
- Hellen Keller

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